4th of Jew lie

The day was a success. I ran in the Freedom festival 10K with Matt and Katie and the whole Corrigan fam in the morning. Always a good time. Then I grocery shopped for the first time in months (once again trying to be better in our new apartment) and bought the fixins for an epic flag cake (photos below). Sometimes I am real ambitious with my baking and try something spectacular, which can lead me to epic disappointment and regret. This cake was almost one of these times. While it was baking, I looked in to find it completely unset and spilling over the sides, creating a mini forest fire in our apartment. The smoke detector started screaming and we rushed to open all windows and door and start the fan. In our frantic-ness, Josh stopped and hugged me and told me it was ok and that he was sorry. He knows this scene well. Lucky for my self-esteem, the cake just took 10 more minutes to set up and actually worked. Phew.
We met up with the Anderson's and Bulkley's and had a fourth of July/ Deb Deb's birthday celebration all afternoon with swimming and food and presents. When it got dark Chase and his friends gave us a light show to remember as I worried constantly that a small child was going to get their hand blown off. Josh said I'm such a mom. aka boring. boo.

this is what we looked like yesterday

after the race. this wasn't even the best photo, I just enjoy Indie pulling Kate's hair

with the Bulkley's. Pri pri was less than cooperative

Indie is a good poser. We have about 10 similar pictures at her request

Mocha had just smooched them

the infamous cake. yeah I'm wearing boy shorts and I'm not happy about them

4th of July Princess

 Happy summer everyone

new apartment

Sunday was the husband and I's first anniversary. A whole year! It went so quick. It feels like an accomplishment even though we just lived life and it wasn't very hard. I think we passed the first year test with ease.
The anniversary felt extra exciting because we moved into a new apartment on the 30th. So we awoke to the first day of our second year of marriage in a brand new, clean, happy, open, non-attic apartment with a washer and dryer and a dishwasher and a cute lil mailbox and vaulted lighting and room for our kitchen table. Josh lovingly says "it finally feels like a home! Now I know why we were so unhappy for a year!" to which I raise my eyebrows and frown because I had no idea we were unhappy to which he laughs and hugs me and says it was a joke. Gotta keep my eyes on that one.

New apartment really is a real home. It gives me motivation to get off my butt and do all the things I've been neglecting. Like flossing. And decorating. And looking for a nursing job. And finally writing those last thank you notes from the wedding (that's embarrassing). And (obviously) blogging. Old apartment was fine with me being a recluse who watched 3+ Malcom in the Middle episodes every morning in my pajamas while eating Honeycomb or an equally sugary cereal. But new apartment is so much more. For instance, I was doing laundry this morning when I noticed my tummy rumbling. I remembered we had wedding cake (as tradition goes we ate some on our anniversary and the rest was still in the fridge). I pulled it out and sat down with it in my lap, my fork poised to dig in and eat the rest of it in its entirety. But then I looked at these beautiful walls, and felt the cool breeze from the air-conditioner, and heard the fully-functioning dryer working diligently, and I remembered it was 8:30 am and put the fork down. Oatmeal is a better choice.

New apartment expects more of me. I'm gonna try to not let her down.

A few poetic gems

Josh has brought out the songwriter in me. Whenever we're alone we'll start humming, then he'll start beat boxing, then we'll dance and start spitting some ill rhymes that are ridiculous and would be ever so embarrassing if anyone ever heard them. Have you heard the rap he wrote for me for my birthday? Entitled: Kri$ali$. 

I'm here with my friend, her name is Kristi. 

A week since the picnic, I'm sure she's missed me. 

It seems just like yesterday we were hanging out and playing games

But everything just seems to change, Yo

That's how it goes

She's so sweet, we call her Krispy Kreme

She's so bright, a light shining beam

You're so pretty, you make the girls jealous

This here Josh, has to fight off all the fellas

Kristi, Krisalis, she doesn't even know how cool she is

Kristi, Krispy Kreme, she likes how I groove and how I lean

We all freak out when you come to our home (Hey Kristi!)

That's why we decided to write you this poem

Sunday dinner comes around, and there's family all around, you still take time to talk to me

In the summer in our town we'll go swimming won't let you drown, \

Chips and soda we will pound, and some orange juice possibly. 

YTB, you're the best, when you leave we get depressed

K to the R, I to the S, it's someone's party can you guess?

Kristi, Krisalis, she doesn't even know how cool she is

Kristi, Krispy Kreme, she likes how I groove and how I lean

We've been so busy lately, hence the lack of blogging for months. One night not so long ago we were both studying hard and I glanced up to see him passed out on the ground, too tired to keep going. He had worked 6 hours that day and then gone to school, and had been doing homework ever since. And suddenly I felt so poetic and scribbled down my first ever poem. 

My first ever poem for you

you're lying on the ground right now looking so tired

probably worried about school and not getting fired

you're such a sleepy mouse cause you worked so hard

you even ran to the bus to work off some booty-lard

Joshy oh joshy now it's time to sleep

I can't wait to cuddle you and play with your bare feet

I'm so glad you're mine, without you I'd be so glum

I love you forever, from your Bieber hair down to your tiny bum.

I shook him awake and led him to our bed and the hum of his slight-snore told me he was asleep for good. We are so busy, but that's just how life is.  But through it all we'll have our silly songs to keep us upbeat.

Woof

I'm trying to be a good wife so I was cleaning away and I got to the kitchen and I thought,
"I'm feeling super ambitious and maybe I'll even deep clean, hmmm, I'll start by pulling out the oven"

OH MY GOSH!
(covers mouth with hand)

This is what I found

dry heave

I have a feeling this is why our apartment sorta reeks.
Can you imagine the years it's been like this? The sicknesses it's caused? When Provo was founded I bet this apartment used to be a horse stall and before letting civilized human beings live it in they didn't even bother cleaning it up. I've been sleeping in the next room for two months and this grim and utter filth has been just sitting there!!! The horror!
Interesting objects found in the pile:
* a toy car
* a child's toothbrush
* a handful of M&Ms
*a garlic clove
* a crayon
* fruit snacks
* a tomato slice


An hour and a half later it looked like this

And then I puked (joke). Just one of the joys of living in rat infested Provo. gross. 

Home alone again.

Just got a little bit electrocuted by the hair-dryer spontaneously combusting on me.
 Instead of leaving this life by simply shutting off, instead it felt the need to spark brighter than the sun in my hands and go from 0-5 million degrees in .2 seconds and transform into a heap of burnt rubber and plastic on my bathroom floor.

What a drama queen.

 

Anxiety will be the death of me

This is not true. I would be very scared to have me taking care of you.

CLINICALS.

Yuck. Great things about clinicals:
1) Nurses.  I am entering the nursing field these days because I have a burning desire to not be such a meanie as it seems 95% of the nurses I get paired with are. When I meet nice, NORMAL, kind people in every day life and they tell me they're a nurse I skeptically ask them again. Are you sure you're a nurse? Cause you aare pretty nice and haven't looked at me like I'm the scum of the earth and we met a whole 5 minutes ago.

2) Clinicals are a great way to show everyone how dumb you are. If ever I feel like I'm getting the hang of things, I  volunteer to get my nurse some IV tubing, and after frantically searching and staring at the supply wall for 10 painful minutes and still not being able to spot it, she then she walks in and grabs it first thing without saying a word. "I was just about to a spot it, Nurse Nancy! Uh, sorry about that! Next time I'll know where it is! haha *elbow nudge haha!!" (In my head: stupid Kristi, stupid. C'mon! get ahold of yourself you dumb A!)

3) It's also very fun to be a creepy little stalker to someone you just met. I especially love when they get up and you follow them, just to have them turn around and say "uh, I'm just going to the bathroom, you're alright."
shoooooooooot.

I got home from work at 9 o'clock on Friday and with one look Josh knew I wasn't doing so good. He held me in his arms as I cried and moaned "Maybe let's just run away forever and never come back?"
I set my alarm for 3:50 A.M. which is neither morning nor night, instead it just exists and no one ever talks to it or tries to form a relationship with it because it's lame and useless and will just end up pissing you off. But instead of 5 hours of sleep, I got 3 1/2  hours of level 10/10 anxiety and Josh got an all night therapy session.

"It's ok Kris"
"IMA DIE TOMORROW!"
"It's ok Kris"
"I'm the stupidest girl in the class!"
"It's ok Kris"
"I'm Screwed!"
"It's ok Kris"

Until finally he coaxed me into sleep for 1 1/2 hours and I had a weird dream of him getting us a pet monkey that I was really pissed about.
When the alarm rang I got up in an absolute stupor and was out the door by 4:15. Have you ever seen how empty the roads are at 4:15? Of course you haven't because NO ONE IS UP. The partiers are smart enough to go to bed by then, and the people up for work don't even get up that eary. As I drove past Denny's however, the place was packed. Of course it was, only dummies go to Denny's and only dummies are up at 4:15 (IHOP is delicious).

As expected, I freaked out all day, and bit my nails a lot, and gave a little pep talk to my 8 day old patient who wouldn't stop screaming as I fed him and asked him nicely if he'd stop so the nurse wouldn't be mad at me when he came back.

The best part of the day? When I got home Josh was carrying a bag. I asked what's in the bag. Nothing baby. What's in the bag? Toothpaste and stuff. That's not toothpaste, that's Twizzlers. And orange juice, and Blowpops, and EVERY KIND OF CANDY I LOVE! YOU ARE THE BEST HUSBAND EVER!

And I ate myself into blissful comatose Twizzler submission.

Sassy Pants

I'm a Wilson girl, and if you know the Wilson girls, they're sassy. I am no exception. Except, I'm the worst kind of sassy. I feel bad about being sassy. No one will ever get the best of me, but after I rip them apart and make sure there is no dignity or happiness left in their world, I feel like complete dirt.

I got super sassy at Seven Peaks yesterday.

We left the park at approximately 4:45. As we are walking to our car, we see Josh's sister, Brittany. She is just arriving for the day. Since we JUST left, I figured they'd let us back in, no problem.

HUGE problem.
I wonder if I could have stopped time right then, like in the movies, and looked forward in the future, if I would have turned back. Probably not, because I'm a complete spit-fire I and love a good fight with management. If anything I would have prepped my argument better and would have been even more impressive.

We went to the gate, and this beefy human said we couldn't get back in. I tried to keep my cool, but after 2 or 3 STRONG implications that I was lying, I went sort of Ape s***.
You can't come back in. You don't have a hand stamp.
THEY DIDN'T GIVE ME A HAND STAMP!
you don't have a ticket.
THEY THREW MY TICKET AWAY WHEN I WENT IN 5 HOURS AGO!
We have a policy (jibberish jibberish jibberish jibberish) to be total jerks to our customers
TALK TO ME LIKE A HUMAN BEING FOR ONE SECOND.
We have a Policy, policy, policy, policy, POLICY POLLLLLLICYYYY

In total, there five S-words, and 2 B-words thrown out, and one final confrontation where he stood in front of me and barricaded my way into the park. I was trying to leave, but he thought I was making a run for it.
WHAT, ARE YOU GOING TO TACKLE ME??! WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
Eric Buttface Jacobs, ma'am and I'm the head manager....
WHATEVER I'M TELLING YOUR BOSS ABOUT THIS

*Storm out in complete head splitting anger.

I went home and wrote a novel to send to his boss. Then, my personality split and I started bawling.

I FEEL SO BAD JOSH!
It's ok baby
ERIC PROBABLY HAS A WIFE AND A KID AND HE'S GONNA TELL THEM ALL ABOUT THE CRAZY LADY WHO FREAKED OUT AT HIM TODAY!!!
He was being mean, Kris, it's not totally your fault
I'M THE WORST HUMAN BEING EVER!
CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYING

I thought seriously about going down to Seven Peaks and apologizing face to face, but I worried there was a warrant out for my arrest and that I'd get capped by Eric before I even got a word in edgewise.
So if you're out there Eric:
You were mean, and I still think I was right.
But I shouldn't have called your "policies" the S-word
And asked you how you slept at night
And called you a moron
And contemplated egging your house
When we meet again in real life don't call me a liar
And I won't think seriously about kicking you in the balls

I'm a 22 year old with a temper that resembles a 5 year old, but a conscience that is growing older by the day. Kind of a bad combo, but Josh loves me.
Thank goodness for that.